Help! My ex is still in my dreams
Posted: June 25th, 2014, 3:35 am
I was with him for 3 years but we were "seeing" eachother and were best friends 4 years previous. We were eachother's first everything. I ended the relationship over a year ago now because the relationship turned nasty, all mind games and controlling. I ended it with him, so shouldn't that of been closure!? We ended on quite good terms until I had a few drinks one night and, I regret it so much now, I Lashed out and we ended up arguing until I told him I didn't want him to speak to me ever again and we ended finally on awful terms after trying so hard to stay friends. Anyway last night I had this dream:
I got a phone call saying he'd died, been hit by a car. I fell apart, I couldn't believe it. I was at home and I was crying in my mum's arms when I saw him through the kitchen window. He was just stood there smiling at me. I stared but I started smiling back, calling out to him but when my mum turned to the window he faded away. I realised it was only his ghost. He came back to the window whenever I started to feel faint and I was desperately trying to talk to him but he kept fading. Then I was suddenly at prom. We went to prom together and won King and Queen when we were at school but we ha argued at the end of the night so I don't know if maybe that was why it was in my dream. But anyway in the dream, he was there at my prom. As a ghost. Sat watching me. I was there with my new boyfriend (who I've been with for a year and who treats me like a princess and he makes me so happy which is why this dream is making me feel so guilty!) but I kept feeling this pull to go and be with my ex. Eventually I sent my boyfriend away an went to the ghost. I don't know why but I was able to touch him an I hugged him and started crying, sobbing about how sorry I am for the phone call, how much I miss him, then I kissed him an told him I still love him. I said if I couldn't be with him alive then I'd join him as a ghost an my friend arrange for me to die the next day so I could be with him. It started to get confusing here because then I changed my mind and I just wanted to be single for a while to get over my ex which meant breaking up with my current boyfriend which I didn't want to do. Then I woke up and my boyfriend is laid next to me and i just feel so guilty. My ex didnt treat me right at all, we were so toxic together. But my new boyfriend treats me so well that I just cant figure out why I'm dreaming about my ex as if e was perfect. I need help cause it's driving me crazy.
I got a phone call saying he'd died, been hit by a car. I fell apart, I couldn't believe it. I was at home and I was crying in my mum's arms when I saw him through the kitchen window. He was just stood there smiling at me. I stared but I started smiling back, calling out to him but when my mum turned to the window he faded away. I realised it was only his ghost. He came back to the window whenever I started to feel faint and I was desperately trying to talk to him but he kept fading. Then I was suddenly at prom. We went to prom together and won King and Queen when we were at school but we ha argued at the end of the night so I don't know if maybe that was why it was in my dream. But anyway in the dream, he was there at my prom. As a ghost. Sat watching me. I was there with my new boyfriend (who I've been with for a year and who treats me like a princess and he makes me so happy which is why this dream is making me feel so guilty!) but I kept feeling this pull to go and be with my ex. Eventually I sent my boyfriend away an went to the ghost. I don't know why but I was able to touch him an I hugged him and started crying, sobbing about how sorry I am for the phone call, how much I miss him, then I kissed him an told him I still love him. I said if I couldn't be with him alive then I'd join him as a ghost an my friend arrange for me to die the next day so I could be with him. It started to get confusing here because then I changed my mind and I just wanted to be single for a while to get over my ex which meant breaking up with my current boyfriend which I didn't want to do. Then I woke up and my boyfriend is laid next to me and i just feel so guilty. My ex didnt treat me right at all, we were so toxic together. But my new boyfriend treats me so well that I just cant figure out why I'm dreaming about my ex as if e was perfect. I need help cause it's driving me crazy.