Continuous dreams of abusive ex
Posted: January 30th, 2016, 12:29 pm
I keep having dreams of my ex boyfriend, who happens to be an abusive jerk, although the dreams are never violent or negative. In fact they seem to be quite good and I tend to romanticize his traits in them. Always focusing on his positive attributes and completely sanitizing his truer nature which was quite violent.
It always makes me feel so strange when I sit and recall these dreams because at this point in my life it's hard to remove the memories of his horrible outbursts and violent tendancies from any endearing and sweet memories I may have.
The dreams are almost never sexual in nature although there is sometimes intimacy. I cannot understand why this keeps happening and I feel guilty sometimes because I think I've betrayed myself in way by letting myself think kindly of him after the terrible things I lived through with him.
Anyone else have similar experiences?
It always makes me feel so strange when I sit and recall these dreams because at this point in my life it's hard to remove the memories of his horrible outbursts and violent tendancies from any endearing and sweet memories I may have.
The dreams are almost never sexual in nature although there is sometimes intimacy. I cannot understand why this keeps happening and I feel guilty sometimes because I think I've betrayed myself in way by letting myself think kindly of him after the terrible things I lived through with him.
Anyone else have similar experiences?