Dream: An ex boyfriend of mine..... sort of the one that dumped me & got away.... well it turns out that he committed suicide about 10 years ago or so.... our relationship was like 20 years ago.... anyway... so I was dreaming that I was back in NYC right after he had broken up with me.... and I was searching for him for some reason.... then when I realized where I was and that I was searching for him then suddenly I was in jfk Airport and I was searching for him... somehow out of nowhere I suddenly knew that he was at gate 33 and that I needed to get there to find him...I moved faster and faster bc I was afraid I wouldn't find him in time.... I guess maybe he was leaving on a plane or something? I sped up even more and suddenly I saw him in line to board a plane! I looked up and saw that I was at gate 33! Frantically I called his name and he looked up and came running up to me! We hugged a long hard hug like we hadn't seen each other in ages and I managed to say, 'oh thank God! I was so afraid I wouldn't find you in time!' We hugged again and I tried to tell him I loved him but then I woke up.... it was really vivid and real! I don't know what to make of it... I remember he looked different... he was chubby or bloated compared to when I knew him and in the dream he'd seemed to have dyed his hair black.... no idea what any of this could mean...
Significant Life Events: On my mind? Just remodeling the house I'm living in... that's all...
As far as relationship frustration or issues? Just the usual stuff...
Background: 45 yr old white female who is self employed
Mental Illness Or Depression: No
Location: Tucson, AZ USA
Feelings About People: Obviously he is dead and we had not spoken in many years even before that. Most honest feelings are that he's probably only 1 of like 2 guys who ever broke up with me.... so yeah, things were left unrequited I guess. Not that I'd ever go back to him even if he had been still alive.
Relationship Status: Am in a situationship
When And How Often: Occurred last Friday night. It's not recurring but I've had a few dreams involving him that were similar in nature and that after I hugged him and tried to tell him I missed him or something I woke up... they were also very vivid...