Dream: I was in the town where my dad lived and it is a very small town .I was with my mom and we were on a red riding lawnmower. I said I needed to drop off a paper to my step mom and my mom was uneasy and was like are yoju sure it is ok I come with( they do not get along) I said yes no problem and I seemed very happy. I drove up the driveway and notice that the lights were on. I get to the deck and knock and nobody was answering but I knew she was home cuz of the light but it was dark when I was knocking. She finally answered the door but she was mad and didnt want to look at me and I couldnt figure out why and she looked so old and she was holding her hands in front of her. I said what is your problem are you still mad is this about dad??
So then I decide to go around the house and up the stairs to get in house my mom again was like I dont know about this She will not like me here.I said come on so we go in house and I hear my sister voice and said we got to go . So we get on the riding lawnmower and I see all these yellow machines like a shovel , pickers stuff you would put in front of these big macheins. I couldnt figure out why are all these machines in the yard.
Significant Life Events: I have a step mom which still lives in the house that my dad built. I alos have a sister with my dad. I get annoyed when they dont want to do anything with me.I dont understand it.
Yes I have fears and my boyfriend is controlling.
Background: I am 52 years old female ,Lost my dad 3 years ago and miss him very much.My mom never told me who my real dad was until i was 45, so I didnt get much time with my dad but I loved him very much. I work at a gas station. Live with my boyfriend (which I know is a sin and trying to work on that)
Mental Illness Or Depression: I do suffer with depression now and then.
Location: Iowa, Lawler
Feelings About People: I really dont have a relationship with them , I feel like they want me out of thier life.
I love my mom she is my everything.
Relationship Status: dating
When And How Often: about 2 months ago and I only had it once