Dream: I dreamt I was in the bedroom then i stood up like i could sense there was someone in the kitchen.. mind you im seeing everything as is in the dark,in the night all lights switched off. in the dark kitchen i see a woman wearing a yellow T-shirt like she was going to the dining room from the kitchen.. soon as i saw her she turned the i looked at her belly it was really big and sagging and in my head im wondering who is this with such a huge tummy.. then i raised my face to look at the person's face, i saw my grandma and i was shocked in my dream cause her body was never like that in real life.
then suddenly im in the bedroom where she and i used to sleep and she is there so im fighting to wake up so i dont see her cause i am scared of ghost..i woke up then back to sleep again.. i dream of her taking off her T-shirt and laying on her tummy on our bed so i can give her a massage as i try she was floating like smoke. this is happening in a dark bedroom!
Significant Life Events: I missed my grandma cause my mom spoke about her today, about how she saw her,identified her in a mortuary during the prepation for her funeral.
My frustration comes from needing closure as to what happened to my grandma and did she really hate me that much to do something to my baby during my pregnancy?
My fear is being stuck in this home where i lived and grew up with my grandma because i feel like it is cursed. Nothing goes well for me and my family, we are always fighting, financially struggling, hard to keep a job or career, relationships dont last and are toxic. I do not want to love again after i was shattered into million pieces from my last relationship.
Background: I grew up with my maternal grandma, we slept on same bed since my childhood.. We loved each other so bad but before she died she and i fought like a rat and cat, we said awful things to each other,we hated each other's guts, she even cursed me during my pregnancy and sworn that i would never have the baby..which turned out true cause i gave birth to a dead child(mesarated stillborn). before losing my baby she had an argument with my brother and got angry and left us for the whole week and never told anyone where she was going, to find out that she visited her sister.. then after couple of weeks from returning home from her sister she started getting sick. I had to help bath her, wash blankets she messed up, we slept in separate rooms. That's when I gave birth to a dead child..then she got worse and we called an ambulance she was hospitalized for 2 weeks i think before she died.. but when she was stil in hospital, I never had a chance to see her.. I cried and wished she could get better and come home so I could treat her better. I regret how I treated her and that she passed away without her and I reconciling.. I did blame her for losing my son but again i believe it was a blessing in disguise. I wish I could have told her that i forgive her and I pray that may her soul rest in peace... But I'm scared of her everytime I dream about her roaming in the house cause my brain literally tells me that she is a ghost which I AM TERRIFIED OF GHOSTS and id pee myself should i see one in reality ever!
I am a 28year old lady,almost mother of two but i lost my baby last year August then my grandma on the same month, I'm an African and recently lost my job.
Mental Illness Or Depression: I stress a lot but i have never seen a specialist to be diagnosed with depression. I have been through so much, i have been broken but i manage to recover even if it takes long i bounce back..
Location: I am in South Africa, Johannesburg, Westrand in a location called Bekkersdal
Feelings About People: I am scared of my grandma because I did not trust her after she disappeared for a couple of weeks to her sister she took every photo of us (family members-me,my mom's,brothers and uncles) only God knows what she did to them. I know that her sister is a Pro in dark magic she might have put a spell on us and she might be responsible for my dead child(giving birth to a stillborn). I could dream about my granma giving me food which means witchcrafty in my culture
Relationship Status: single for a year now
When And How Often: it happend last night.. but i first dream of my grandma (after she passed away) in Oct 2020 she was naked sitting on a chair in the kitchen then i slam the door on her as soon as i saw her n she was left alone in the kitchen while Im in the bedroom we used to share then I open the door again and she was doing dishes naked still.. but i thought i am dreaming about her naked because we couldn't dress her up in a mortuary because she contracted Covid 19 in Hospital and dreamt of her dressed up in her usual dress, she was fine and passing by in the street where i was standing and she waved at me with a smile and left, even though i didn't respond i was not scared nor frightened to see her in my dream but this recent dream of her it is scaring me..