Dream: Being swallowed by Godzilla in a crumbling city, seeing the light fade away. I woke up, then went back to sleep.
I was in a terracotta open air grocery store/market/bazaar, I was sent to get limeade before my entire family checked out at the counter. I asked for some help from an associate, a kind young trans-man pointed me in the right direction. I grabbed a old fashioned glass 12 pack, saw him again and we looked at some pastel blue, yellow, pink, white, and deep purple segmented shorts, I said how much I liked them, and he said I would look good in them. I paniced and remembered my family was waiting, so I grabbed the limeade and ran to them but I was lost. I don't remember much after that.
Significant Life Events: Classes, i fell behind in work load due to being hacked, and my financial aid hasn't come in for the month yet. Im trapped at home with a mother who has consistent microaggressions towards me. (e. g. job status, gender identity, lack of accomplishments, I'm depressed and avoiding people)
Background: 21, trans Non-Binary, Caucasian, Student
Mental Illness Or Depression: Yes, a lot. Diagnosed with BPD, and talking with my psychiatrist/therapist about symptoms that look like Other Specified Dissociative Disorder and Schizoid PD
Location: Texas, DFW MEtroplex
Feelings About People: They dont accept me, that im an outsider to them and they don't respect me. That I keep failing them in every way.
Relationship Status: single
When And How Often: 9/8/2020