Dream: I am on a farm and I walk to the barn, when I go inside I see my friend with a gun in his hand and hes crying. He puts the gun to his head and I slowly try to approach him while trying to talk him down from wanting to shoot himself but he yells at me saying that if I move closer to him he will only shoot sooner so I stand where I am crying and begging him to give me the gun but he refuses then he says he loves me and hes sorry but he has to do this and then he pulls the trigger and dies so I run and catch him then I hear running footsteps coming to the barn and the door opens
Significant Life Events: mourning my friends death that killed himself and my other 2 friends that killed themselves
Background: female, 17 years old, and canadian student
Mental Illness Or Depression: i suffer anxiety and depression
Location: Canada, British Columbia, Langley
Feelings About People: I looked up to this kid as a role model, friend, and someone I could trust. He did actually shoot himself in the head in his barn and his dad found him.
Relationship Status: single
When And How Often: It occurs every February (thats when he died) and it happens almost everyday in February