Dream: Dreamt I was waiting for my deceased aunt, she went, who went with me somewhere to get some stuff sorted out. A lady with a baby walked up to me and i started to talk & kiss the baby girl. she was the cutest little darling ever, & laughed & smiled back at me. I held her while her mother was feeding her some food & she became sick. It seemed like she had diarrhea & her mother took her to clean her up. When they came back, i was took her again, & she held on to me while her mother was explaining to me what kind of food the baby prefers. At that moment i realised that i have been waiting very long for my aunt. I gave the baby back to her mother & started running. I found myself at the house i share with my boyfriend & his dad. An aunt of mine was busy packing my cupboards & i asked her where my other aunt (the 1 who is deceased & who i was waiting for earlier) was. Just then she comes out of the bathroom & tells me that they said they can start the process but it is not worth it, the money is not worth it. I felt very confused, whether to start this 'process' or to just let it be.
Significant Life Events: Wondering about being pregnant. Planning & talking about having a baby. Concerns about physical health. Fearing for ill health. No relationship issues.
Background: 28 year old female, coloured, working as a company secretary.
Mental Illness Or Depression: yes
Location: Kwazulu Natal, South Africa
Feelings About People: I miss my aunt dearly. She was always there, willing to help & always telling jokes, making us laugh. I also feel sorry for my cousins who lost their mother at such a young age. I wish she was still around.
Relationship Status: Dating
When And How Often: I wont say that it is recurring, but i do dream of babies quite often. In fact last night, i dreamt of a baby girl i had seen on tv - she was laughing & playing around. She was happy. I felt happy.