Dream: Recurring, I often dream that my deceased mother and I are living together. We are both single, and working and helping each other make ends meet. More often than not...we are living in North Dakota (where I grew up) and I catch myself worrying about how I am supposed to see my daughter who is in Texas, while I’m living with my mother in ND.
Recurring, I have had many dreams about the younger man I am dating. This repeat dream entails me being at his parents house . His parents are welcoming of my presence, but also curious as to why I am back or still at their house. When I go into his room, I find bras next to his bed...and online evidence of a girl he is spending time with. I feel anxious, nervous, and uncomfortable in these dreams.
My dream last night...was a combo of both recurring dreams. My mother appeared and looked the age she was when she passed, 49. Her skin was very radiant, and she looked very healthy and very happy. Almost like her natural features in life were enhanced and she had a radiant glow about her. I dreamt that she had bought herself a modest house in Stanley,ND (which is where she grew up, and is her final resting place.) She told me I could have our other house...that it was paid off. I was so happy for her because she always wanted her own house and the fact that it was in her hometown gave me an overwhelming feeling of peace. Plus, now I could save money because I would be living in a paid off home...then, she started to talk to me about metals and energy absorption in the earth, and was very specific and serious about the topic...somehow it was to protect me. At a separate point..the young man I’ve been seeing appeared behind me-with my mother in front of me. I introduced them, and she offered a very radiant smile of approval and assurance.
Significant Life Events: Finishing my Insurance Adjuster Licensing Program, applying for jobs. A little bit of worry and pressure. Also, a man I’ve been off and on with for the last three years. I have very strong feelings for him and there has been a lot of confusion , for me about what to do with my feelings. He is 26, I am 35...we are as different as we are alike , and have a connection that I believe scares both of us.
Background: 35 year old single mother. Caucasian. Well educated. In between jobs.
Mental Illness Or Depression: Depression.
Location: Denton,TX . USA
Feelings About People: My mother....well, I feel like she would be proud of me for the hard working woman I’ve become and that I’m a great mother.
She always was concerned about the men I dated when I was younger....and let me know of her approval or disapproval.
The younger man....our relationship is good....but, it’s not consistent...reassuring...or advancing. He has told me that I think too much into us.
Relationship Status: Single
When And How Often: Last night, and yes