Dream: i am with one of my adult children, but i don't know which one outside in a public place with several other people, it feels like it is outside of an event of some kind/before going in. I see a friend from school across the way with her husband. she is smiling looks happy and she is pretty. she is walking in front of him but looking back smiling. Then we are inside and she, my child and I are inside and she makes a derogatory comment about her husband. Then we need to go to the bathroom and when we enter it is crowded but huge and it has beautiful and colorful tile everywhere some large some small. my friend keeps saying how beautiful the tiles and the room is. It is very spacious, elegant and gracious. we walk up a few steps to the toilet areas. I see three toilets and a woman working there watching over the area. Instead of stalls there are these elaborate wood, tile and metal cabinets built around the toilets the two doors open from the center and have a brass latch. I am afraid i'm not going to be able to get the contraption open in time. at the end i feel my child still there with me and looking back at my friend nearby. it ends here
Significant Life Events: I have an important report to compile that is due soon. the deadline for everyone's information is past and many have not sent it in - they are higher up than me. so it is frustrating.
I also lost my partner 4 years ago this month to suicide.
I'm worried about retirement and I have a slow evolving leukemia that i always have in my mind
Background: i am female 65 years of age. I am 'white. I work for a government agency. my work varies a lot making reports, tracking financial data, making promotional materials. i live alone. i have 4 grown children
Mental Illness Or Depression: yes - depression
Location: Arkansas USA
Feelings About People: The friend i care about but know she is wishy washy. i don't see her at all anymore. She did lose her son to suicide right after my partner died. The child with me - i don't have a clue which one it is
but i have a good relationship with them. but feel I'm not a very big part of their lives anymore
Relationship Status: alone
When And How Often: last night 4/17/18