Dream: i was standing next to a river, with my feets stepping on stony ground. the sky was similar to dusk. it was cold but i dont feel cold i like it. it felt calming and cool ( not awesome cool but in calming way with cold feelings). then i saw a grey wolves standing in front of me with a upside U shape shades covering the wolves to the ground. the wolves stands right in the middle of the shades so it was slightly dark. it wore a mask a bit in gold colour perhaps. just the eyes area till the nose except the tip. i tried to catch a glimpse of it face so i bend down. then it bark, out of fear and shock, i rush and ran pass her through the shades to the other sides. i was quite far when i turn back. it stands there tall and look at me. i howl at her but i was facing the sky to howl loudly then after awhile i heard her howls back. i was worry if the her howls was calling for her packs but at the same time i considered her howls was a reply to mine.
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i was fighting 2 dogs. 1 brown and the other was black. i was not hurt but i fought roughly with dogs cuz they kept on attacking me. then i saw a car and ride it with 2 person at the passenger seat and the driver seat but i dont remember who they are but i feel as though i know them. the window was open and i look outside to see whether the dogs still chase me and they do. as i tried to close the window they manage to dive in and i hold them down. my hand reach their mouth and try to break or split the dogs jaw but what stop me was not my strength but empathy. and i manage to push them out and close the window. i told the 2 person in front to drive faster and the dogs did not follow and i woke up.
Significant Life Events: my studies and assigment
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i fear of my studies of not being able to pass with a B as least and my family financial issue is quite alarming which reach a cold relationship( this has occured for years)
Background: the only child, 22 years old, mix racial blood (indian + malay), female, undergraduate student
Mental Illness Or Depression: i have depression but not clinically confirmed
Location: malaysia
Feelings About People: the wolves i dont feel afraid when i saw her at first but when she bark i was afraid and shock. even after passing through the shade i still dont feel afraid just agitated if she is angry or something. i dont feel any predator vibe from her.
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the dogs, i feel like how you would feel when people chase you, i dont feel any unknown feelings with the 2 person infront of me, as though i know them but its not a very close feelings. but like they are family but im not close kind of feeling. the dogs, i dont feel afraid even when they attack. i can just break their jaw easily but i didnt because i dont have the will. and just push them out.
Relationship Status: single
When And How Often: last night. it does not recurring. but the wolve in the mask is what curious the most to me. why mask?