Dream: i was sitting in a dark room with my friends gray, lilly, and a couple other people i dont remember. gray is a friend of mine and we used to be very best friends but we arent very close anymore. lilly is my good friend and i consider us close but i feel like she doesnt like me. gray was wearing a green shirt. green is his favorite color and he looks good in it so i guess thats why he was wearing green. lilly was there but she was more in the background and i never actually saw her in the dream. i was sitting on a couch and gray was across from me on another couch and he was telling me how he didnt like me. and he was telling me about all the people who didnt like me, some were my close friends and some acquaintances. he was telling me why they didnt like me and that no one really liked me at all. i remember feeling so sad, hopeless, and insecure. confused as well. hurt. then it just kind of ended and i woke up but i felt so sad.
Significant Life Events: i have been very sad and feeling hopeless about my future and insecure/paranoid about my relationships
Background: white 17 year old female student lesbian
Mental Illness Or Depression: yes
Location: louisville, kentucky
Feelings About People: gray- i wish things would go back to the way they were a while ago when we were inseparable and when he made me feel good about myself. he doesnt make me feel so good about myself anymore.
lilly- good friend who i love very much and admire but feel like she doesnt like me very much, afraid she and gray talk about me all the time
Relationship Status: single
When And How Often: it occured the other day, only had it once