Dream: I started having these dreams right after my fiance passed that he was alive and I was trying to save him... but he always died in the end. I also would have dreams where I cant find him. In my dreams I am frantic and hurt and it seems hes hiding from me and its always in dark and creepy places that I find him. One time I had a dream that he was with me, just holding me and when I woke I could still smell him and feel his cheek on mine. Now that its been 7 years I dont have these dreams as often but when I do they really mess me up.
Significant Life Events: whats been on my mind the most lately is my unemployment and my health issues and missing my fiance who passed.
Background: I am almost 46, divorced single mother of 2 adult children and now I am a grandma. I am white and I am unemployed due to health issues
Mental Illness Or Depression: I suffer from depression and anxiety
Location: Pratt Kansas now but I am originally from Oregon
Feelings About People: Sam was the love of my life... he was that once in a lifetime person. 7 years have gone by but I still hurt and miss him. He was an alcohalic and refused to get help and he drank himself to death. I was holding him as he died in the hospital and I just dont think I will ever be the same. Every time I have tried dating, moving on it makes me miss and think of him more.
Relationship Status: single
When And How Often: the dreams started back in December 2010 and are reoccurring.